The Memorial
Day parade was the last time for the senior band members to march, and
so it could be bittersweet. The parade was basic and not very long. We'd
march a few blocks, at most. It would be the high school band, some veterans
groups and maybe a drum corps or a Scottish pipe band.
We'd trek
up to the cemetery (on a hill, always on a hill) for the service. A World
War II veteran would give a prepared speech, sometimes borrowed from a
previous year, just pulled out of the file.
At the very
end of the speech one of the trumpet players would have gone far down
into the cemetery and would play "Taps." Then the World War
II veterans would shoot a 21-gun salute, which made people jump and babies
cry.
And that
was Memorial Day for many years. Then, when I returned to my home town
as a reporter, for three years my Memorial Days involved covering these
ceremonies. That meant taking pictures of the small parade, pictures of
people at the ceremony and of the main speaker. It meant writing up an
article on the speech, maybe interviewing a few veterans. It was usually
my only assignment for the day, and everyone was happy to talk to me.
There was a general consensus that it was important and that the true
meaning of the holiday was overlooked. They would always stress it was
about those who fell in conflict and not about backyard barbecues.
My family
history includes a high percentage of Quakers and pacifists, so I can't
think of anyone in my immediate family who died in a war. If you go back
far enough, I did have ancestors on both sides of the Civil War. Fortunately,
they didn't eliminate each other.
But the
strangest thing this morning was that I was thinking of a particular family
member who died a gruesome death. I don't want to sound sacrilegious,
but she wasn't even human.
What I thought
of this morning was my cat Squeaky. I'd had her for a couple years and
she'd never liked staying inside, so I left her out at night. I lived
on a fairly quiet street and thought it was safe. One morning she didn't
come home for breakfast. I had a sick feeling in my stomach. I decided
to look for her, got in my truck and had only gone a block when I found
her in the road. It was a terrible sight, so I'll spare you the details.
I screamed, jumped out of the truck and ran to her, knowing there was
nothing I could do.
I went back
to the house and found something to collect her remains. Unfortunately,
the most appropriate thing was a garbage bag. I made sure to collect all
of her remains, although this was not easy.
I called
into work and told them I wasn't coming in, drove over to my mom's house
and dug a grave in the back yard within a triangle of trees. I had the
idea that it would be nice if living things could be nourished by her
passing. Once the grave was done, I laid her on a large strip of pine
bark and placed a serving of her favorite cat food in there with her.
My mom and
dad joined me to have a ceremony. We said a few words about her, and I
finished the task of filling in the grave. Years later, fresh green grass
grows there. It might be my imagination, but I think the trees are healthier.
Perhaps
the reason I thought about Squeaky today was because I imagine that her
tragic passing and my handling of her death must be similar to the sorts
of things people experience on battlefields. It's excruciating to find
someone you care about in that kind of condition, and yet, at that point,
the only way to show your love for them is to see that they are buried
with dignity and respect.
On Memorial
Day, veterans come out in their dress uniforms, give solemn speeches and
offer a dignified memorial service to their fallen comrades. Many of these
veterans will never talk about exactly what they saw and exactly how their
comrades met their fates. But they remember, and they honor the memory
of those they knew and those who died.
So while
the barbecue smells great and there is a place for celebration, we should
pause to honor the memory of those who died in all conflicts and to pray
that we can help create a future where such brave deaths will no longer
be necessary.
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