She was
the roommate of the girl he'd cheated with, and she went into details
(legs up... noises... did it twice...) that I would have been much happier
not knowing.
I broke
up with the guy, but held a lingering resentment for the friend for many
years afterwards.
At the time,
I was a daily newspaper reporter, and the chairman of the county commissioners
chose this exact moment to have a very public breakdown. Dragged out of
my bed, still hacking and still seething, I wrote this rant, which remained
unpublished until now.
I'd been
reading a lot of Hunter S. Thompson at the time, and I think it shows.
Call
someone who cares
Ever
since his DUI arrest, The Chairman of the County Commissioners has become
a tragic figure. His normally soft-looking baby face is strained and full
of shadows. He is touchy and doesn't return press phone calls.
When
it happened, I was annoyed, then angry. It was already a busy news day.
I didn't need this.
Then,
as we hardhearted smart ass journalists do, another reporter and I started
arguing over whose commissioners were more decadent.
"I
have two drunks and a wife beater," I said. "My commissioners
could take your commissioners in a street brawl any day."
"Yeah,
well, my commissioners are ... dumb as a sock puppet," she countered
weakly. But she was in my column now and it was the best I'd let her do.
Yay.
I won. My commissioners are the most weak-willed, depraved, philandering,
underhanded, insincere pork barrel swine in the region. A hollow victory,
at best.
That
night I dreamt spiraling nightmares of red and blue flashing lights, shame
and degradation. I woke in a sweat, feeling nauseous.
Through
some evil coincidence, I had contracted a stomach flu. I spent the next
two days in bed, reading erotica and writing twisted poetry.
On
the morning of the third day, my editor awoke me in the second of my only
two hours of sleep in three days, wanting to know if I could make an emergency
press conference and call in the story. In the grip of nausea, compounded
by various personal crises of betrayal and backbiting, I stumbled into
the county administration building.
The
Chairman looked like a ghost, his face wracked with pain and shame...
I wish I'd had my camera. But there was no way to get the film in before
deadline anyway.
In
his prepared speech, he said he took full responsibility for his actions.
His voice shook as he said how sorry he was and how he wanted to apologize
to everyone affected: the public, the police, his family.
Funny.
He wasn't so contrite when he refused to take a blood test the night of
the incident.
Over
the next two months, The Chairman attracted bad press like whores to a
televangelist convention. He and the County Controller's office sniped
at each other over various scandals involving finances and back-room politics.
As
I questioned him about one of them, The Chairman stared at me with his
wide turquoise eyes and assured me he didn't take it personally. "I
understand the press," he said with a knowing smile. At that moment
I realized we were alone. It was the first time I'd ever seen him without
his press agent hovering around like a diseased crow.
I
wrapped the interview and escaped before he could bludgeon me with an
executive desk toy and drag me off to some dark dungeon of the administration
building, a renovated prison. No doubt there are leftover isolation cells
for such uses.
Personally,
I'm sick of it all. I'd trade my decadent commissioners for my colleague's
"dumb, dumber and doofus." The last three faxes with county
letterhead I dumped in the trash.
I'm
tired of being used as a public forum for gutter sniping. Especially for
an administration that arrested a young couple, ripped their two-year-old
child out of their arms, confiscated 46 marijuana plants and hung a monster
sign on the front porch: This Drug House Closed.
This
desk is closed. Here's a quarter. Call the competition.
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